What used to be one unit is now pulled apart into four. I'm referring to our family - my husband and I plus my three dear children. They are all part of me and for a long time I took for granted the fact that they were all within my line of sight under one roof. Then one by one university education, and now job, pulled them away. Then all of a sudden my life is changed. I didn't anticipate this effect on me and I guess I did not prepare for this.
Although, parents spend what seems to be a lifetime preparing their children to be independent, in my case, I was not prepared to be separated from my children. It is like losing a part of me and that I now have to adjust my life. But it is not simply adjusting. It appear that it requires a lot of time getting used to the change.
This period in my life, however, is not all that grim. Things may be so different now but the situation brings me to a different level of growth which started when my first child went away to Wisconsin for her job. God used the situation to teach me very hard lessons on giving up control (101). I thought I barely passed. But now with my second child I am now put in another upper level class - giving up control and trusting God (202). I must admit, this is a difficult subject. The lab exercises are excruciating. However, I am learning to depend on God in a real way. I'm learning to say to Him, "God they are Your children before they are mine. So I trust them in your hands." I am not only learning to give up control over the welfare of my children but most importantly I recognize whom I can transfer my control into.
The picture above is a collection of snap shots from the four locations of my family taken today within a period of thirty minutes. It serves as a reminder to me that God is with His children no matter where they are. Things are going well. And it is not because of me. It is all because the Ruler has everything under control.
Parenting brings unintended maturity.
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